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Recently our 600th day passed, and today is our 20th month together - the longest relationship I've ever been in. So this is what it feels like, to not be in a puppy love relationshihp that lasts a few months and dies off. I'm happy, and I still am, that I'm with him. 

We went to Bangsar for dinner the other day. We've been eyeing this place called Piggy Tail for quite some time now. I can't remember why we were attracted to it. The name ? The logo ? The pig ? Maybe it was all three. But I'm glad we went there that night. One of the best pork dishes I've had in a long time.

Jason is also the only one I'd probably ask to help me take OOTDs in public. Oh the awkwardness of having people give us a look before walking off to wherever they were walking to. Thanks for putting up with me, and doing most of whatever I would ask you to do. 

I feel happy that I don't have to use GPS to go to Bangsar anymore HAHHA. Finally expanded my repertoire of destinations to drive to. But there's still so many places to discover, so many places to go. I'll leave this post now, there's honestly not much to write anymore HAHA.

Ah well, #Natson.

See you soon :)

Hi everyone :)

It's been so long since I last touched my blog. But I'm here to update all of you about my life for a bit. I've finally started studying again after STPM. It's been a VERY LONG break. About 9 months since I last touched my textbooks and I'm expected to still know everything I learnt back then.

Oh, for all of you curious cats, I'm taking my degree in Biomedical Science at Taylor's University Lakeside Campus. Please don't classify or stereotype me as a rich kid, because well, scholarships are everwhere. It's so different compared to Pre-U and I feel old because nearly everyone in class is a year younger. 

As for those thinking why I didn't opt for Local Universities, I didn't get the course I wanted. Well technicaly I WAS offered a course, but I applied for it as a backup plan if I didn't get the course I originally wanted. But then again, Biomed was an option i considered only AFTER submitting the UPU applications.

That is actually something I can relate to. I honestly feel like a robot sometimes. I'm always influenced easily by the opinions of people around me. I'm the kind of person who, in the end, does things and makes choices to please people or to go with the flow.

Take this for an example.

My mom was going to get me a car. A week before getting it, I asked quite a number of people to help me decide on the colour, knowing very well that the colour I personally favoured was RED. However, EVERY SINGLE PERSON I talked to chose SILVER. And right now, my car is freaking silver. It wasn't bad at first, until I saw the red version all over the roads. 

That pinching feeling in my heart made me feel like I imade the most terrible choice in the world. And I'm trying to change that. It's not easy to change once you get to a certain age, but I'm trying. I don't want to let the world define me, I want to be DIFFERENT. 

But that won't happen without support. And this is why I'm truly grateful for the friends I've made right now. They're very cool people. They make me remember what kind of person I used to be a long time ago. I used to be the talkative one, the one making decision and influencing my peers. But right now, I'm just a listener, the quietest person, and one saying "yeah that's fine". 

Screw that shit. I still don't think I'll have much to talk, but I'm going to do the things I like without worrying about the opinion of others. I want to shape my identity. 

Well now. Thanks for reading :) And so sorry for unrelated pictures again, I need an outlet to be vain sometimes. HEHEHEH. 

Hi guys ! :)

Sometimes I find it weird that the 30 Day Blog Challenge is what keeps me going in the blogosphere. Especially now that I'm working and reach home fully exhasuted mentally, the thought of opening my laptop and typing words feels like a burden for my tired hands.

Nope. Definately not easy to do without a goal in sight.

Now, this week's challenge is to share something that I struggle with..

Current struggles ? Dealing with PEOPLE.

As a front liner in the business industry, or the non classy job name, retail assistant / promoter, I always have to deal with people. My customers. And that is the struggle. Every. Single. Day.

We all know that there are different kinds of people in the world. The different kinds of buyers, shoppers, customers, patients... Just name it. Everyone is unique and great, and at times, everyone is an asshole. But here's the kind of customers that never fails to annoy me at work.

1. Give DISCOUNT la.

Sure. There's tons of discounts and promotions going on now. You can *inserts promotion details here*. But what does the customer say ?

Customer : Aiya give more la!

Customer : You sure can give more right!

Customer : Wahh so little one? Sure got better discount wor.

Customer : You don't give discount I don't buy.

Customer : Give discount la got buyer also you don't want the sale ah ?

Seriously people, you pay what you get. Have you ever asked for discounts at hospitals or clinics ? Did you get any ? NO. The only thing you can do there is complain but because you know the value of medicine you pay for it anyway. Not that I'm selling medicine, but I'm not working at a night market. The place you should go to for haggling is the pasar malam.

2. Give me NEW one !

This is probably true for everyone, buyer or not, and it's something I understand as well. Nobody likes display items, unless they're head over heels in love with it and it just so happens to be the last pair. That's a rare case. But what about the shoes that weren't on display and you only tried it once ?

Me : Yes this one is new. I took out new one for you to try.

Customer : No I want new one. This one I try already.

Me : ........

I then walk into the store room, wait about one minute while repacking the shoes neatly, and then I give the exact same pair to customers.

Customer : Ah see this new one nicer ma! Thanks ah girl.

Please. You can't even tell the difference.

3. Asks questions, Doesn't hear answers.

These type of customers are just so damn annoying. And when I choose to not answer you, you look at me and ask why I didn't answer your question. I talk, you cut me again. Get a longer attention span please. It makes me wonder who has to talk to you every single day and either suffer being cut midway of a sentence, or continue talking while you ask another question. 

Customer : Why so expensive ?

Me : Oh it's because -

Customer : Why my feet like this one ?

Me : Well there are many reasons for -

Customer : Girl this shoe I can wear ? Go take my size !

Me : What size -

Customer : Girl why never answer me one

Me : *internally feeling like whacking customers*

Honestly it's annoying. Very, very annoying. Like, you don't even deserve customer service. You can deal with self-service. If only you would LISTEN.

I could talk and write about this all day long but for now, listing the three most frequent customers I deal with is enough to get some frustration out. Trying to keep the good vibes only.... trying. It takes too much effort to deal with people. Especially when the effort isn't rewarding. Then it feels like a waste of energy and time. 

Well now, if you can relate then I'm glad we're on the same page. If you can't.... just please tell me you aren't the kind of customer I'm talking about. Hahaha....?

Have a good day :)

Hey all !

This time's Blog Challenge topic is like the title itself. The 5 songs I'm loving right now. Teehee. I always convince myself that I like all sorts of genre but somehow I always fall back to one kind of sound only. Not sure if you would understand cause different people have different tastes in music.

But anyway, here are some of my current faves ! Can't help but hear them whenever I can. Once I got so addicted I kinda just replayed the same song for hours. HAHAH.

1. Kim Sung Kyu - The Answer

Sung Kyu is one of my favourite singers in the KPOP scene. It's not because he's part of Infinite. He has his own unique voice and sound. Plus seeing him on variety shows drags me deeper in love with GrandpaKyu. HamsterKyu. I-dont-know-how-many-kyu-nicknames-he-has. "The Answer" is from his second solo album and is worth a listen. I like Kontrol and Alive as well, but if I had to choose, it'd be this one! :)

2. Mamamoo - Um Oh Ah Yeah

Mamamoo is back with Um Oh Ah Yeah. The title got me a bit skeptical at first. Was it a title chosen on purpose so it might end up on search portals when people look for EXID's Ah Yeah ? Pretty sure there could have been more choices for a song title. But the music video takes a spin on gender bender and the song is pretty catchy! Add that up with their amazing vocals when they sing it live, and ta-da! You have a pretty good song from them after piano man!

3. All Time Low - Cinderblock Garden

Never would have heard this song if my sister didn't play the whole album on repeat in the car everytime. Honestly I loved the album. I liked so many songs. I'd put them on replay when my sis wasn't around HAHAH. But still, I think I liked this song the best, especially the acoustic version. I would recommend other tracks as well. Kids In the Dark, The Edge of Tonight, Future Hearts... well... pretty much the whole album is a good listen.

4. Set It Off - Duality

I don't know which I liked first, but there is just something about their music that sets them apart from other bands. Nope, I can't explain it in words. You'll have to listen to it yourself. Of course, if you liked this then try their other tracks. Swan Song, Wolf in Sheep's Clothing, I'd Rather Drown... I think Set It Off has their own colour that's hard to find anywhere else.

5. The Ark - The Light

Kinda watched this music video on a whim and didn't expect much. I ended up watching the mv again because it was so touching, and then went on to hear their live and MR removed videos. They're a talented group, and this song was a good one to debut with. I'm already waiting for them to drop another song. Heheh.

Well, these songs are my own picks for this week ! I'm pretty sure you have your own personal opinions. Share them with me sometimes ! I tend to get bored of my own music after awhile. Not that I'm getting bored with these yet though. KPOP and JPOP music scenes are pretty active. Hahah !

Thanks for reading again guys :)

Hey all :)

Kindly excuse this post. I just needed to get it out of me before I get overwhelmed by all this negativity within me. At least with these words I'll hopefully get some sun back to outshine my rainy days. 

Bear with this one post please heheh.

The people who look up to me

The people who look down on me

What if those two were just parts of myself ?

Being harsh on myself

Flattering my fat ego

Then popping it like a balloon in mid air

Sinking me deep beneath the ground

Shattered, battered and crushed

What light do I see now ?

When darkness engulfs me

Which way do I go now ?

When I can't even trust my instincts

But even when I'm down here

While the rest of you make your way to the top

I'll come back even harder

And join the race once more

So don't take pity on me

Don't act sorry don't sympatize with me

Instead walk in front of me and allow me to see

The big picture that I've forgotten in me

Once the puzzle pieces are connected

And everything comes together

I'll regain composure and confidence

And look you in the eyes once more

xx.