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Went for SMK USJ 4 and SMK La Salle PJ's Joint Fellowship Day last Saturday ♥ Their theme was "PANDA : Black, White & Asian". Wanted to wear my panda hat :D But on the way to Subang I realized I left it at home TWT Poor hat. Bought you from China and never wore you at all. Tsk Tsk. It was an anti-racism event :D teehee.

                                 
Went there with Sharon, Bryan, and Fatimah. Lots of familiar faces there :D I would have taken a proper picture with Sharon but she hated her hair on that day. oTL. But it feels so nice to see everyone again :)) especially those i didnt see in months ! hahah ! :D I'm quite lazy to blog right not actually, took me ages to find my draft post for this and for all i knew i only had to click the "draft" button at the corner. Damn annoying. -__________-"


To be honest, I don't really like bands. Cuz most of the time they're super noisy and they make my eardrums go S.O.S. But this time round I guess I'm okayy :)) I wonder why though O.O But they were good :) Sorta.

If I'm not mistaken her name is Farah ? Really liked her voice :)) Only wished it was more stable at times. Otherwise her performance would have been slightly closer to perfect :)) And yeaahh, she sang lonely 8D and her own song as well ! hahaha, awesome person ;)




I think I'm not blogging in order, but who cares la. I'm so pissed of with blogger right now. LOL. Oh weeheee they made a slideshow for the outgoing and incoming bods 8D I wished I brought my specs to see clearly. Too bad I left it in the car :(( Otherwise I could say more. ;))




Yesh, blur pictures.. LOL. *josh! take clearer ones la :P*  hahaha. All I remember was that Joseph's performance was the opening act, sorta similar to the time they performed at SJ's IR, and Charmaine's performance made Sharon regret quitting ballet. LOL. Gosh I think I should shut up right here :X


Haven't attended any fun events lately :D Mostly installations after another. So yeah, the fellowship day was like "yaaayyyy!" and so much more :DD Finally I get entertained, not entertaining ! LOL. I liked the picture above :D Could've sworn I took a club picture with that background but apparently pictures are not up yet :S I wanna see it, soon !


Oh yeah, most of the picture credits go to Josh :P The retarded quality ones are from phone. hahaha, lazy to edit it to look better. Heck, I don't even remember the last time I touched an editing software :X But anyways, go panda go ! :D

Look at that lot of ugly smeared butter cream topped with chocolate chip smiley faces. Helped my sis make them for her Hari Koperasi. Sold out on that day itself. And did you notice how retarded those smiley faces are ? Ours are just about the same, except that our smiles are not retarded, its either FAKE, or GENUINE.
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Just realized that I hardly camwhore nowdays. Probably due to my major handphone problem. It keeps showing me that "Please insert SIM card. Or, to view a demo of this phone, please press demo" thingy on the screen. And it won't stop no matter how many times I restart my phone and re-insert the SIM card, it justs keeps bitching on me. But when I use another phone, most of my contacts are gone. And so are my smses. Not to mention pictures as well. Aizz... why am I so poor ? Can't even afford to fix the blardy phone. So please, find me at facebook(Natasha Mg) or twitter (@nuttyvivi) or call my sister or mum if you have their numbers !!! I feel so bad already.

And crap ! I forgot what I wanted to blog about after posting pictures. I could have sworn it was going to be related to Cuddles (my dog) , but I guess I ter-switch topic to my phone :S rawr. Just so you know, Cuddles's fur feels like horse hair right now. Shaved her bald last month. Its slowly growing back :)) Those who saw her already would agree that her her head looks BIG ! Like... really big :X Poor doggy ! hahahahaha.

I shall end it here before I get more off-topic.
roarrrring ! ♥ vivi

Have you ever watched Gensomaden Saiyuki ? I think its called "Saiyuki" or "Saiyuki Reload" now. But if you did watch it, I'm sure you know who's Sanzo right ? :)) He quoted two very similar things in the anime.

• I don't believe in anyone nor do i believe in God. I just believe in myself.
• I dont need to believe in God to believe in myself.

Whatever your thoughts may be, if you don't say them, none of it will be acknowledged by others.
Tomoyo Daidouji (Cardcaptor Sakura)

That quote is so true, and I'm not only saying this for myself, but to everyone. Who on earth would understand something just by looking at you ? You put on a smile when you're not happy. You laugh eventhough it's not funny. You  say things you don't want to say. But when is all of this going to stop ? It WON'T. Unless YOU start pouring your mind out. Let the truth out. No point hiding behind your fake personality. It's just not you. Or are you happy just being like that ? I know I'm not.

I tend to do things I don't want to do. But I don't want to dissappoint someone.
I keep my thoughts to myself eventhough I feel like telling someone about it, because I know it'll hurt someone.
I smile for the sake of smiling. Otherwise everyone will ask me "why are you so emo today?"
I laugh at something just because everyone is laughing. So I won't feel left out.
I do something that isn't "me", just so I could blend in with the crowd.
I pretend to be strong eventhough I'm not, so everyone won't see my tears.
I want to give up but my pride and ego won't let me do so.
I am scared and insecure. And there's no reason to explain that.

Does any of you feel that way as well ? If so, then you and I are on the same boat for now. I'l break free from this. I'll let everyone know how i feel now :)) I don't want to suffer because I didnt voice my own opinions. And I know I'm capable of doing this, because I'm a fighter, not a loser.


sincerely from, 
vivi ♥