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Hey all :)

Kindly excuse this post. I just needed to get it out of me before I get overwhelmed by all this negativity within me. At least with these words I'll hopefully get some sun back to outshine my rainy days. 

Bear with this one post please heheh.

The people who look up to me

The people who look down on me

What if those two were just parts of myself ?

Being harsh on myself

Flattering my fat ego

Then popping it like a balloon in mid air

Sinking me deep beneath the ground

Shattered, battered and crushed

What light do I see now ?

When darkness engulfs me

Which way do I go now ?

When I can't even trust my instincts

But even when I'm down here

While the rest of you make your way to the top

I'll come back even harder

And join the race once more

So don't take pity on me

Don't act sorry don't sympatize with me

Instead walk in front of me and allow me to see

The big picture that I've forgotten in me

Once the puzzle pieces are connected

And everything comes together

I'll regain composure and confidence

And look you in the eyes once more

xx.

Good day :)

This time's 30 Day Blog Challenge is "5 Ways to Win My Heart".

Ha... Ha... Ha...

I think this post would only be benificial to one person though. Oh dear, the things that are in the 30 Day Blog Challenge. This makes me want to cringe so badly my fingers won't straighten itself to type this properly anymore. Kidding.

Q : Why would I tell the whole world how to please me?

A : Cause it's a challenge. Dammit.

This doesn't work all the time though HEHEH. And no you don't have to do this. But you're all curious peeps eh ?

#1 Anything Handwritten

Handwritten words. Oh the glorious moment when you open the envelope and be engulfed by words meant only for you. Words written while thinking of you. Words that you probably wouldn't hear from that person on normal occasion. A whole piece of paper with meaning and fuzziness.... Okay I should stop here. But thanks to all of you who wrote me something before ♥

#2 Loyalty

Need I mention more ? Especially now when I can't seem to hang on to just one person to call a best friend. Well, it's true that only in your darkest moments will you know who your shining angels are. I've been there and suffered. Yet I've been there and took the time to appreciate those helping hands. What if life if you have to go through it alone ?

#3 Taking Time Off For Me

Everyone's busy these days. From studying to exams to work to I-don't-know-what-else-you-do-but-you're-always-busy, I appreciate the time people make for me whenever they have a busy schedule. It's always a pain to make changes to plans, I'm sure everyone agrees. But who's willing enough to make immediate changes just to meet up with you ? The ones worth keeping.

#4 Making Me Talk and Laugh

I think everyone who knows me would know that I'm a quiet person in general. I'm usually the listener in the group. The secretary type person in every meeting. The one with a zip on her mouth. I actually find it rare for me to talk nonstop. It doesn't help that I don't get response sometimes. HAHAH.

#5 The Little Things

Not sure if everyone is like me, but I prefer all the tiny things one would do for me instead of a giant once a year thing. If you get what I mean. Remembering my favourite food, knowing which song I always choose in karaoke, finishing my sentence for me, already guessing my burp timing - oh wait. That's too much HAHAH.

I'm pretty sure that there are more ways to win a person's heart. Yet, the things i mentioned here aren't the only ways. 

I don't know how to say this but...

These lists are often IDEALISTIC.

Not all if it would win through my heart.

I guess it just boils down to who you are and what you mean to me.

It's the same for everyone.

Good Day everyone ! :)

After my birthday celebration posts, I'm back to continue Day 4 of the 30 Day Blog Challenge, "List down 5 places you want to visit".

This is hard as well. It's not that I don't have anywhere I want to visit, it's that I have too many! Picking the best of the bunch is hard. Although I did narrow it down to just 5, there are still tons of places I want to visit. Being ambitious but yes, I do want to travel while I'm still at my prime years. Please do note that the following list is just my preference :)

I've already been to China, Singapore and South Korea. I would really love to travel more, especially now before I start my degree. I went to the Matta Fair this year with my mom, but unfortunately I didn't get to do anything there aside from taking brochures and taking note of the kind of travel packages offered

1. Japan.

Jeng jeng jeng ! Those of you who have known me for a long time will probably expect this to top the list. Well, here it is. I've been watching animes and reading manga since young, and because of that, I've always been enchanted by Japan. Sakura flowers, temples, culture, food (sushi!), fashion - and lots more ! Furthermore, the best season for sakura watching is my birthday month HAHAH. Yup, planning to go there on a birthday month heheh!

2. Italy

Venice. Rome. Pompeii. Sicily. Milan. There's so many destinations I want to visit in one country. It's a great place full of beautiful landscapes, historical sites, art and well, origin of pasta HAHAHA MY FAVOURITE. I'd probably just eat pasta, pizza and lasagna HAHA JOKING. Who in Italy eats all that everyday of the week ? 

3. Hawaii

When you say Hawaii, I think grass skirts, sandy beaches, umbrellas to relax under accompanied by great drinks. Of course we can get a similar environment here in Malaysia, but not all beaches look the same. Another thing that I really want to visit there is the Haiku Stairs, or also known as the Stairway to Heaven. If I'm not mistaken it has about 3922 stairs. Too bad it's illegal sigh. Many have said that the view at the top is just breathtaking. I wanna see :(

4. Iceland

"The Land of Fire and Ice". Geysers, waterfalls, volcanoes, glaciers, ice caves and more. I've been looking through pictures and sometimes it feels like one of those places where the pictures don't do enough justice for the place haha ! It's a beautiful place I want to visit. Especially the Blue Lagoon ! And by the way, the horses there are so adorable !

5. Phillipines

Yet another place with beaches and islands I want to visit. Hehe. It's like a gemstone that people overlook sometimes. Or so I heard from my friends. Not only that, my grandmother is from the Phillipines, and I want to see the country for myself. Besides, language isn't a problem because most of them can speak English. Heh. Also a great destination to see nature, the flora and fauna, it just sounds really appealing to me. 

I'm always torn between travelling via travel agencies and having the whole itenary planned out for me, and booking everything by myself. Both has it's pros and cons, but to fullly know a place, it's always best to travel yourself. However, with the travel agency, everything is done for you and it's more hassle free. Even if I do know where I want to go, there's the question of HOW.

So where are the places that YOU want to visit ? Let me know :)

Felt overdressed that night but it was my night so meh. HAHHAA JOKE. Great interior. Nice ambiance. The view outside was just romantic at night. However, I wasn't too sure if the food I was eating was worth the price I paid for. The food was okay, but it didn't have the oomph I was waiting for when I read the reviews online. Probably set my expectations a lil too high for this place.

I really liked the place but I was too sleepy after work that night. I barely talked hahah. Just listened... or trying to listen while keeping my eyes open. Oops. Nights are much more romantic and they're the only time I get to spend time with people, but my physique and stamina just tells me to hit the sack by 11pm.

But if you noticed, pictures are an exception HAHAH. 

Really regretful that I just sat there and listened. Even when I was given the chance to talk I didn't have much to talk about. It was like a... "oh my turn to talk? what do i say now?" kinda debate going on in my head HAHAHAH  #insidestruggles

However, I really do appreciate the fact that they made time to spend with me :) It's never easy to meet up with so many of them in a day. Heheh. Thank you once again queens ♥


P/S : Picture credits to Yan, Vonn and MetalBox employee HAHAH :D

Woke up to this on my sister's room mirror. I don't have a mirror so I use hers HAHAH. I think she paid me back for the time I stuck tissue on the car wiper. (she thought she had a parking summon HAHAH). 

Birthdays are days where spending on good food is worthwhile and reasonable. Also, it's not everyday people will pay for you HAHAH. Unlike my every work day mamak food, this was a VERY nice change. It's been awhile since I had salmon too. 

Thank you ladies for the cake ! My first and only slice of cake this year so far hahah ! It was also my first time trying salted caramel cake. I honestly thought it was a chocolate cake at first sight until the owner mentioned that it's actually caramel. I must say, it was a satisfying choice. It wasn't overly sweet and had a subtle caramel taste... until you eat the sides.

Mandatory picture with Layne and Vonn ! :D Thanks for spending time with me despite your busy schedules heheh. However, the food didn't stop there. Oh no no no.

Vonn and I headed to SS15 for Sangkaya's Coconut Ice Cream ! The parking was crazy but the ice cream was worth 4 rounds around SS15 heheh. One of the best ice creams I've tasted so far. The sweetness was just right! Unique in it's own way. The only thing that would have made it better is if came in a slightly larger portion hahah ! 

For dinner, Jason and I went to the Three Little Pigs & Big Bad Wolf. I've always walked past this restaurant while doing grocery shopping at Bangsar New Village. Never really got the chance to taste the menu until tonight. And right now I'm wondering how many first(s) I've already written in this blog post. Heh. I dare you to count. 

Can never avoid Orea Milkshake and Carbonara once I eye it in the menu. Speaking of which, I somehow chose not to eat Carbonara for lunch for the first time in Carbonara menu history HAHAH JOKE. I just needed to satisfy my carbonara craves. I liked the mood setting and ambiance there. Was romantic enough for the night hehehe.

I think the only thing I did on my birthday was eat. Breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner and now supper ! Oh wait, does dessert count as supper ? Hahah ! I brought Jason to Dip&Dip because he didn't try it yet. Besides, I'd rather have it in Bangsar than cram in the outlet at Pyramid.

Oh. Who gives a bouquet of flowers and skittles ? My boyfriend. HAHAH. I'll blame this for my sugar rush at work. 6 packets of extra energy. 

Once again, thank you to everyone who made my 20th a little better, be it in a small or big way. Heh.

♥♥♥♥♥